I’ve done my fair share of clubbing and dabbling in recreational drugs, I have realised that dabbling is not for me, I’m upset by the way people turn on you …just …like…that! If you’re not in it the doors get slammed in your face, nice!!
If so called friends choose to take drugs thats up to them, I don’t change my opinion of them I still thought they were cool, just a shame they don’t feel the same way about me. ‘You’ve changed’ ‘yes I’m not kite high!’ that’s the difference and it’s really nice. Besides from all my research its clearly not good for you, people really don’t realise what chemicals do to your insides or what they continue to do, it’s quite hard to get to that point when you’re out and say no and change your clubbing experience. My boyfriends pressure has finally worked and I’m so grateful, I do see things and people differenntly but I would never shut the door on them, a so called friend who has always been high maintenance you know, one of those people who changes the plans for everyone and everyone goes with it otherwise that friend get’s into a bratty mood anyway she now speaks for a group of people!! What is that about? this group of friends have a spokes person quite funny but a shame it’s better known as ring leading!!!!
I’ve known this particular friend for 3 years and never expected her to be like this but I don’t suppose she thought I would say no in the end so thats made a huge mark on my personality, I’m no longer fun! She has the nerve to say I’m strange when I’m out, when she’s so off it she constantly has to check behind her every two minutes then again she does this when she is straight now, that will be the paranoia settling in well. I spent two weeks having to reassure her she slept in her shorts when she shared a bed with a boy, so annoying getting calls, texts and being acosted on facebook without fail about something so ridiculus, instead of ignoring it I spent alot of time reassuring her, what a waste of my time, I don’t know if she had her f-ing shorts on I couldn’t f-ing care less!!! And the time she thought she lost a plug up her…. yes you know, what’s that about!! She didn’t know where it had gone and some how presumed it was up there!! if these aren’t examples of paranoia and side effects then god help her when they come. She wants children when she’s older I just hope it doesn’t effect her in that way, I mean this girl takes alot of stuff it’s scary how immune people can get to substances. Anyway I guess now I’m out I sound like some preacher!! Sod it maybe I will become one slightly!!
I used to goto stinkys on a Sunday religously and get pretty wrecked, as reality was dawning on me I would look around and see the people around me, there were 47 year olds out, out with 18 year olds getting off their heads, I couldn’t help but think this place is not for me, what am I doing? Why are these people who have children out on a Sunday night, why is a youth worker off her face every Sunday available? It doesn’t matter how old you are but surely this is backward? I went to an after party ages ago and had to leave as I realised the house was the 47 year old youth workers and she had a 16 year old asleep upstairs, I was listening to a story about her son ‘nicking pills’ from her bag, I was shocked at what I’d heard and it was these moments that shocked me into thinking about what I was doing. I talk as though I had some huge problem, I didn’t it was like a once a week thing, instead of being pissed I would get high instead, it wasn’t a problem but things could easily turned into a problem. These Sunday gatherings are for people who want to get messy, it’s so easy to be part of a circle and so hard when you leave but if anyone reads this, just please think about what you are doing, I know it can be fun but it can suck you in and going by the seniors that are out on Sundays well its enough to put you off, do you want to end up like that? Single mother or father with a crystal meth looking face and with whispers flying about the place…no it’s not cool and your true friends will be there afterwards, if you find you havent got any…thats pants!! You’ll have some you’ll be surprised, they’ll be the ones that didn’t enjoy ‘the circle’.
Drugs have been fun, I’ve go some amazing memories from festivals, nights out and Ibiza but now I can see they are so false, I’m stating the obvious but you really cannot understand whilst you use them, they’re not your friend, they’re not worth it. Those times when everyone in the circle loves you are the times you’ve been most wrecked and thats what they like you for, not the real you, as soon as your yourself, they change.
These new drug going around are so similar to crytal meth its scary and people really don’t realise. Drugs have always been bad but they are getting dirtier and worse by the day, ruining more and more lives.
Anyway enough of my new irritating preachy ways, muchos lovos. xx
just say no just say no just say no just say no just say no just say no just say no just say no just say no just say no just say no just say no
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