Thursday, October 29, 2009

Cannabis Ebonics - Stoner Terms

We found this list of stoner terms online and thought we’d share them.  Some of the terms are more frequently used in America however most (if not all) have made their way into the international stoner vocabulary.  We also dug up a classic clip of Ali G listing other stoner terms:

April 20th (4/20) – International Cannabis Day, everyone blazes on this day. Everyone blazes at 4:20 every day too.

Blaze – To get high!

Blunt - Either a hollowed out cigar filled with marijuana or (more commonly) a “marijuana cigarette” rolled with a blunt wrap (tobacco paper or emptied cigar).

Bowl - Can refer either to the part of a piece that holds cannabis, or to the pipe itself.

Bogart - The act of holding on to a joint/piece/blunt for too long, or one who does such an act: “Don’t bogart that joint my friend, pass it over to me”.

Boo – A street name for marijuana, listed only in anti-drug literature. No one has ever heard or used it. If you are ever arrested for possession, you should use this term, saving the taxpayers the expense of correcting and reprinting anti-pot pamphlets.

Kick-Hole / Carb – The hole on the side of a piece used to regulate air flow. Hold it closed with your thumb while inhaling to draw smoke into the chamber, then release to let air in and force the smoke into your lungs. Also called a “rush hole”.

Cherry – The red burning coal of marijuana in a joint or bowl.

Chillum – A pipe with the bowl in line with the stem.

Ganja – Just 1 of many synonyms for marijuana – see the Ali G video below for many more

Hashish / Hash - The resin secreted by a marijuana plant. Different kinds of hash are prepared with a variety of recipes.

Hash oil - A liquid extracted from marijuana. Use mostly by dipping smokeables into the hash oil.

Hit – A drag or puff of cannabis.

Hot Box / White wall - Getting high in a car or small space with no ventilation so that you are constantly inhaling atmospheric smoke.

Joint / Zut / Doob / Doobie - Marijuana cigarette. Kind Bud (chronic, hydro, sticky icky, highs) – High potency Cannabis.

Mids – Descent cannabis for the money you pay for it, if you don’t have a lot of money this is the best way to go.

Moocher – Someone who will smoke your bud in a second, but never has any of their own.

Papers / Skins – Cigarette papers used for rolling joints.

Piece - Refers to a pipe of one sort or another.

Resin - Black tar like stuff that builds up in smoking apparatuses.

Schwag – Low grade cannabis or the leftovers from the bottom of a big bag.

 

Source:  www.howtogrowbud.com

Math with a Moral

Assume a twelve-inch dick is sticking right out of your forehead. Just how much of it can you see? Since this is a cultural blog, I expect that many readers will be hesitant as to exactly how one might set up this equation. And maybe a few will ask, “Is this culturally relevant?” Let me express that it is my sincere hope that, while neither you or I really know the cultural relevance of this post, by the time I have finished, I will seamlessly suture this profound question to our glorious culture, with all or most of the pertinent quotes from both the Old and New Testament. And don’t bother with clever things like the angle of the dangle in trying to answer the question. To do so would miss the point. The answer is simple. You can’t see shit. This is because you have two huge balls hanging right in front of your face. Are you starting to sense the moral here? In chapter nine of the Gospel of John, a man who, blind from birth, is healed by Jesus. Jesus says a bunch of really sweet shit such as, “’As long as I am in the world, I am the light of the world.’ When he had thus spoken, he spat on the ground and made clay of the spittle, and he anointed the eyes the of the blind man with the clay.” Of course, some say that it was not spittle in the dust, but rather LSD. We read that, like most everybody else who Jesus tried to “turn on”, the guy blabs to everyone and the Pharisees get hip. Jesus is then accused of blasphemy (a real trick). By the way, this is a complete digression, but did you know that the Honorable Senator Sam Brownback, who is soon to be our governor, anoints himself with unctuous oils before he casts votes and holds committee meetings? Is that not creepy as fuck? And he supports the wanton gang raping of females working for defense contractors (cf. http://www.republicansforrape.org/). Anyway folks, the analogy I’m trying to draw here is that, here we are in the middle of this Babylonian shit-storm, but we don’t realize it, because we can’t see shit. Just like when your significant other was fucking every man, woman and child in the district, you will be the last one to know that you got a big dick on your forehead. It’s truly a parable for our times. Consider Fake Patty’s day. The Lord expressly forbids it. Open your books to Isaiah, chapter five, where the practice of getting up early to drink is addressed by the Lord God Almighty: “Woe unto them that rise up early in the morning, that they may follow strong drink; that continue until night, till wine inflame them! And the harp, and viol, the tabret, and pipe, and wine, are in their feasts: but they regard not the work of the Lord, neither consider the operation of his hands.” Just think people; He’s got the WHOLE WORLD in His hands. What, I ask you, is in the hands of idolaters, fornicators, and carousers? It’s like one of those really gross key chains that the creepy-ass gas station attendant (no offense) hands you, only the key is to the gates of Satan’s gas station unisex restroom, replete with all manner of lascivious latex products. The situation is getting absolutely out of hand. Even bats are beginning to behave in immoral, lustful and debauched ways. They’re performing acts of fellatio! (http://www.treehugger.com/files/2009/10/chinese-fruit-bats-engage-in-unusual-sexual-behavior.php?dcitc=th_rss) “The foxes have their holes, and the birds of the air have their nests. But the Son of Man has no place to lay his head.” Meanwhile, we’re running out of comfortable places to lay our heads. We’re less like Jesus here, and more like Pinocchio. For we are liars, and the father of our lies is none other than that old dragon, Satan. But of course, I’m hopeful. In fact, I have more than hope—I have faith! Just think about the most obviously hallucinogenic drug-inspired book of the Bible (and my personal favorite), Apocalypsis de Iohanni (The Revelation of St. John). In perhaps the most glaring reference to LSD consumption in the whole Holy Bible, the Angel gives John a book (a whole stack of blotter!). “And he gave it me and said, eat. And I ate. And it was sweet like honey in my mouth, but bitter in my stomach.”  Poor guy! After that, the angel gives him a tape measure and tells him to measure the temple. A word of advice to all you gung-ho psychonauts: never do that to your friends who have just consumed psychedelic drugs. It will confuse them, and the measurements of the temple will most likely have inaccuracies. Of course, this was all going on at a jazz concert, with an angelic trumpet septet, so it’s really no wonder that John started freakin’ out, ‘cause those horns were fuckin’ hot and the cats playin’, well, they was all fucked up too. Can you imagine trying to measure the temple with a head full of acid while not one but seven Miles Davis’ are getting up with it? And then out come seven more vials of acid? That’s when things get really fucked up. And think, good people: this is how we’re to be saved. This is how we remove the dicks (analogous, at this point, to the trappings of the ego, and culture with a lower-case ‘c’) from our foreheads. Think of the Revelation of St. John as step-by-step instructions for dedicking. What’s next? You should read all the details for yourself (especially if you haven’t lately, because otherwise few of these jokes will make any sense at all), but the long and short of it is that shit gets crazy, the Beast 666 comes up out of the pit, talking a bunch of shit. So Jesus, who looks like some crazy seven-horned goat to poor John at this point, whoops Satan’s ass and knocks his dick in the dirt. Good guy gets the girl (in this case, all of us repentant sinners are his bride), and we all live happily ever after, alright? So fucking chill. Of course—and this is just a minor point or a side note, or whatever, but I’ve always found it interesting what John says at the very end of the book, after it talks about how we’re all going to be brides of Jesus. John, probably not quite back to normal yet, seems to feel a little inadequate after contemplating the idea of Jesus consummating this heavenly marriage with everybody, probably all at the same time. He writes, “He which testifieth these things saith, Surely I come quickly.”

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Food for thought on legalization

While farting about on the intar-webs yesterday (namely, sites like reddit and digg), I couldn’t help but notice there were more articles on the legalization of marijuana than is typical.  Good.

I’ve never smoked a blunt in my life.  I’m not sure if I would were it legal.  I mean, let’s be realistic here.  I don’t do a lot of things that are legal…like pop prescription pills, smoke cigarettes, or take out life insurance claims on my employees…not that I have any.  Still, I say “Good.”  Talk about it.  Keep talking.  Prohibition doesn’t work.  Make it legal.  Tax it.  Regulate it.  Make it safer, for gosh sake (do the same for cigarettes and other substances while you’re at it, bozos…additives usually=health problems).  Put an age limit on it, like cigarettes and alcohol.  Better, put it behind the prescription counter at the pharmacy, not behind the counter of a corner store.  Of course, people will get a hold of it anyway…but most of us have been to a drunken high school party.  They can get it whether it’s legal or not.  Make it really difficult for drug dealers to do their jobs, not by policing them and wasting our tax dollars on imprisonment, but by making their roles obsolete.

The problem is that “They” don’t want them to be obsolete.  As long as there are as many “criminals” as possible, there is reason for us to fear.  When there is reason to fear, there is reason to follow.  The powers that be do not want fewer criminals.  What they actually want are more criminals, so we will ask them to protect us by gradually removing our freedoms.  It’s for our own good, isn’t it?

I’m not saying that drug dealers don’t do horrible things.  Drug deals go horribly wrong.  People are hurt in the process (often in tragic ways).  If dealers are obsolete, however, those shady deals going on outside on your sidewalk where your children play will slowly go away.  Yes, “other” crime will still be happening.  Gangs will still be there.  Husbands and boyfriends on power trips (usually drunk, not “high”) will still be beating their wives, girlfriends, and children into comas.  There will still be dumb-fucks drunk off their asses acting belligerent and getting into violent trouble.  The previous two sentences are describing situations typically caused by a legal substance much more damaging to your brain and body than pot, by the way.  Although, I doubt I really need to mention it.  Again, we’ve all been to parties.  The drunks are falling down stairs, hitting on women who aren’t interested, getting in fights, and having the cops called on them by irate neighbors.  The pot heads are in the basement pretending they know who the hell Aristotle is and giggling to themselves about lord knows what.

What about addiction, you may ask?  I ask, what are we really doing to solve issues of addiction by putting addicts in prison?  Most people come out of prison worse off than when they went in.  It hardens you.  A few find God, and I’m happy for those people.  Most make new “friends” and create more enemies.  I say, write them a controlled prescription and give them real help.  Take those tax dollars away from the prisons and put it into health care facilities and rehabilitation programs.

If I had to define in one sentence the problem with the way things are done in this country (not regarding legalization specifically, but in general), it would be this:  We put too much money into what doesn’t work.

Former Rockwall High cheerleader found dead in Dallas in suspected drug-related death

We’re terribly sad to announce that a popular former Rockwall High School cheerleader and 2008 graduate was found dead in her Dallas apartment Saturday night.

The rumor being texted between former and current Rockwall High School students is that her death was drug-related.

Alexis Rae Lancaster, 19, is survived by her mother, Leah Pearl Gentzler, and husband, Stan, of Rockwall, plus her father, Stephen Scott Lancaster, and wife Kristi, of Caddo Mills.

Her sisters are Lindsey Mills of Caddo Mills and Samatha Gentzler of Rowlett. Her brother, Chris Gentzler, and family live in Kemp TX. 

Dallas Police this afternoon could only confirm her death, but said no cause of death will be determined for a few days.

Click here for more funeral details at TheRockwallNews.com.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Camden - October 2009

Never been to Camden before. I had previously avoided the place because I got the impression it was wasteman central – full of Doherty and Winehouse types. In fact, it wasn’t. It was, however, very touristy – with a vast array of London trinket stalls all run by Turkish and Greek guys. What delicious irony!

Most of them sold the Trilby hats, the chains, the whispy ‘independent’ clothing…Everything you need to become ‘different’ and ‘arty’ [/cynicism]

Kristian

The Opium Godfather

The Geopolitics Behind the Phoney US War in Afghanistan
October 12, 2009

One of the most remarkable aspects of the Obama Presidential agenda is how little anyone has questioned in the media or elsewhere why at all the United States Pentagon is committed to a military occupation of Afghanistan. There are two basic reasons, neither one of which can be admitted openly to the public at large.

Behind all the deceptive official debate over how many troops are needed to “win” the war in Afghanistan, whether another 30,000 is sufficient, or whether at least 200000 are needed, the real purpose of US military presence in that pivotal Central Asian country is obscured.

Even during the 2008 Presidential campaign candidate Obama argued that Afghanistan not Iraq was where the US must wage war. His reason? Because he claimed, that was where the Al Qaeda organization was holed up and that was the “real” threat to US national security. The reasons behind US involvement in Afghanistan is quite another one.

The US military is in Afghanistan for two reasons. First to restore and control the world’s largest supply of opium for the world heroin markets and to use the drugs as a geopolitical weapon against opponents, especially Russia. That control of the Afghan drug market is essential for the liquidity of the bankrupt and corrupt Wall Street financial mafia.

Geopolitics of Afghan Opium

According even to an official UN report, opium production in Afghanistan has risen dramatically since the downfall of the Taliban in 2001. UNODC data shows more opium poppy cultivation in each of the past four growing seasons (2004-2007), than in any one year during Taliban rule. More land is now used for opium in Afghanistan, than for coca cultivation in Latin America. In 2007, 93% of the opiates on the world market originated in Afghanistan. This is no accident.

It has been documented that Washington hand-picked the controversial Hamid Karzai, a Pashtun warlord from the Popalzai tribe, long in the CIA’s service, brought him back from exile in the USA, created a Hollywood mythology around his “courageous leadership of his people.” According to Afghan sources, Karzai is the Opium “Godfather” of Afghanistan today. There is apparently no accident that he was and is today still Washington’s preferred man in Kabul. Yet even with massive vote buying and fraud and intimidation, Karzai’s days could be ending as President.

The second reason the US military remains in Afghanistan long after the world has forgotten even who the mysterious Osama bin Laden and his alleged Al Qaeda terrorist organization is or even if they exist, is as a pretext to build a permanent US military strike force with a series of permanent US airbases across Afghanistan. The aim of those bases is not to eradicate any Al Qaeda cells that may have survived in the caves of Tora Bora, or to eradicate a mythical “Taliban” which at this point according to eyewitness reports is made up overwhelmingly of local ordinary Afghanis fighting to rid their land once more of occupier armies as they  did in the 11980’s against the Russians.

The aim of the US bases in Afghanistan is to target and be able to strike at the two nations which today represent the only combined threat in the world today to an American global imperium, to America’s Full Spectrum Dominance as the Pentagon terms it.

The lost ‘Mandate of Heaven’

The problem for the US power elites around Wall Street and in Washington is the fact that they are now in the deepest financial crisis in their history. That crisis is clear to the entire world and the world is acting on a basis of self-survival. The US elites have lost what in Chinese imperial history is known as the Mandate of Heaven. That mandate is given a ruler or ruling elite provided they rule their people justly and fairly. When they rule tyrannically and as despots, oppressing and abusing their people, they lose that Mandate of Heaven.

If the powerful private wealthy elites that have controlled essential US financial and foreign policy for most of the past century or more ever had a “mandate of Heaven” they clearly have lost it. The domestic developments towards creation of an abusive police state with deprivation of Constitutional rights to its citizens, the arbitrary exercise of power by non elected officials such as Treasury Secretaries Henry Paulson and now Tim Geithner, stealing trillion dollar sums from taxpayers without their consent in order to bailout the bankrupt biggest Wall Street banks, banks deemed “Too Big To Fail,” this all demonstrates to the world they have lost the mandate

In this situation, the US power elites are increasingly desperate to maintain their control of a global parasitical empire, called deceptively by their media machine, “globalization.” To hold that dominance it is essential that they be able to break up any emerging cooperation in the economic, energy or military realm between the two major powers of Eurasia that conceivably could pose a challenge to future US sole Superpower control—China in combination with Russia.

Each Eurasian power brings to the table essential contributions. China has the world’s most robust economy, a huge young and dynamic workforce, an educated middle class. Russia, whose economy has not recovered from the destructive end pf the Soviet era and of the primitive looting during the Yeltsin era, still holds essential assets for the combination. Russia’s nuclear strike force and its military pose the only threat in the world today to US military dominance, even if it is largely a residue of the Cold War. The Russian military elites never gave up that potential.

As well Russia holds the world’s largest treasure of natural gas and vast reserves of oil urgently needed by China. The two powers are increasingly converging via a new organization they created in 2001 known as the Shanghai Cooperation Organization (SCO). That includes as well as China and Russia, the largest Central Asia states Kazakhstan, Kyrgyzstan, Tajikistan, and Uzbekistan.

The purpose of the alleged US war against both Taliban and Al Qaeda is in reality to place its military strike force directly in the middle of the geographical space of this emerging SCO in Central Asia. Iran is a diversion. The main goal or target is Russia and China.

Officially, of course, Washington claims it has built its military presence inside Afghanistan since 2002 in order to protect a “fragile” Afghan democracy. It’s a curious argument given the reality of US military presence there.

In December 2004, during a visit to Kabul, US Defense Secretary Donald Rumsfeld finalized plans to build nine new bases in Afghanistan in the provinces of Helmand, Herat, Nimrouz, Balkh, Khost and Paktia. The nine are in addition to the three major US military bases already installed in the wake of its occupation of Afghanistan in winter of 2001-2002, ostensibly to isolate and eliminate the terror threat of Osama bin Laden.

The Pentagon built its first three bases at Bagram Air Field north of Kabul, the US’ main military logistics center; Kandahar Air Field, in southern Afghanistan; and Shindand Air Field in the western province of Herat. Shindand, the largest US base in Afghanistan, was constructed a mere 100 kilometers from the border of Iran, and within striking distance of Russia as well as China.

Afghanistan has historically been the heartland for the British-Russia Great Game, the struggle for control of Central Asia during the 19th and early 20th Centuries. British strategy then was to prevent Russia at all costs from controlling Afghanistan and thereby threatening Britain’s imperial crown jewel, India.

Afghanistan is similarly regarded by Pentagon planners as highly strategic. It is a platform from which US military power could directly threaten Russia and China, as well as Iran and other oil-rich Middle East lands. Little has changed geopolitically over more than a century of wars.

Afghanistan is in an extremely vital location, straddling South Asia, Central Asia, and the Middle East. Afghanistan also lies along a proposed oil pipeline route from the Caspian Sea oil fields to the Indian Ocean, where the US oil company, Unocal, along with Enron and Cheney’s Halliburton, had been in negotiations for exclusive pipeline rights to bring natural gas from Turkmenistan across Afghanistan and Pakistan to Enron’s huge natural gas power plant at Dabhol near Mumbai. Karzai, before becoming puppet US president, had been a Unocal lobbyist.

Al Qaeda doesn’t exist as a threat

The truth of all this deception around the real purpose in Afghanistan becomes clear on a closer look at the alleged “Al Qaeda” threat in Afghanistan. According to author Erik Margolis, prior to the September 11,2001 attacks, US intelligence was giving aid and support both to the Taliban and to Al Qaeda. Margolis claims that “The CIA was planning to use Osama bin Laden’s Al Qaeda to stir up Muslim Uighurs against Chinese rule, and Taliban against Russia’s Central Asian allies.”

The US clearly found other means of stirring up Muslim Uighurs against Beijing last July via its support for the World Uighur Congress. But the Al Qaeda “threat” remains the lynchpin of Obama US justification for his Afghan war buildup.

Now, however, the National Security Adviser to President Obama, former Marine Gen. James Jones has made a statement, conveniently buried by the friendly US media, about the estimated size of the present Al Qaeda danger in Afghanistan. Jones told Congress, “The al-Qaeda presence is very diminished. The maximum estimate is less than 100 operating in the country, no bases, no ability to launch attacks on either us or our allies.”

That means that Al-Qaeda, for all practical purposes, does not exist in Afghanistan. Oops…

Even in neighboring Pakistan, the remnants of Al-Qaeda are scarcely to be found. The Wall Street Journal reports, “Hunted by US drones, beset by money problems and finding it tougher to lure young Arabs to the bleak mountains of Pakistan, al Qaeda is seeing its role shrink there and in Afghanistan, according to intelligence reports and Pakistan and U.S. officials. For Arab youths who are al Qaeda’s primary recruits, ‘it’s not romantic to be cold and hungry and hiding,’ said a senior U.S. official in South Asia.”

If we follow the statement to its logical consequence we must conclude then that the reason German soldiers are dying along with other NATO youth in the mountains of Afghanistan has nothing to do with “winning a war against terrorism.” Conveniently most media chooses to forget the fact that Al Qaeda to the extent it ever existed, was a creation in the 1980’s of the CIA, who recruited and trained radical muslims from across the Islamic world to wage war against Russian troops in Afghanistan as part of a strategy developed by Reagan’s CIA head Bill Casey and others to create a “new Vietnam” for the Soviet Union which would lead to a humiliating defeat for the Red Army and the ultimate collapse of the Soviet Union.

Now US NSC head Jones admits there is essentially no Al Qaeda anymore in Afghanistan. Perhaps it is time for a more honest debate from our political leaders about the true purpose of sending more young to die protecting the opium harvests of Afghanistan.

Copyright © 2009 F. William Engdahl

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Canadian study suggests how parents can influence children's sexual choices

Story here at No Apologies. (H/T Andrew)

This is based on a study by the Institute of Marriage and Family Canada. (IMFC)

Excerpt:

Parents’ behaviour and attitudes during childhood shape a teen’s sexual choices. Based on our findings we recommend:

• Parents should be the prime sex educator. Parents are the most influential force in a teens life

• Parents should work to create a healthy, stable home characterized by warmth, open communication and clear expectations

• Parents should model a healthy lifestyle and positive choices. Your children are watching

• Sex education should engage parents and recognize their role as the primary sex educators

• Sex education should acknowledge that girls face unique risks compared to boys when it comes to early sexual engagement

While it may seem daunting to see correlations between family behaviours years ago and sexual activity in your children today – the news is positive. Teens do listen and want to listen to their parents, as indicated by surveys and polls. It’s something to remember next time your teen slams the door and turns up the music.

Here are the four practical tips discussed in the IMFC article:

  • Eliminate parental use of alcohol, drugs and tobacco
  • Involved and engaged fathers and increased parent-child communication
  • Increased community involvement by parents, especially church
  • Married parents biologically linked to the children

DEA In The News

October 23, 2009

DEA Announces Unprecedented Strike Against Mexican Drug Cartels


DEA Acting Administrator Michele M. Leonhart joined Attorney General Eric Holder and other federal officials on October 22 to announce the results of Project Coronado, a 44-month multi-agency investigation which targeted the Mexico-based La Familia Michoacana drug cartel. It represents the largest such operation in law enforcement history.

La Familia is a violent drug trafficking cartel based in the state of Michoacan, in southwestern Mexico . It controls drug manufacturing and distribution in and around Michoacan, including the smuggling of vast quantities of cocaine and methamphetamine from Mexico into the United States . La Familia is philosophically opposed to the sale of methamphetamine to Mexicans, but readily sends it to the United States for consumption by Americans. La Familia is a heavily armed cartel that supports its narcotics trafficking business with murders, kidnappings, and assaults.

To date, Project Coronado has led to the arrest of 1,186 individuals, and the seizure of approximately $33 million in U.S. currency; 1,999 kilograms of cocaine; 2,730 pounds of methamphetamine; 29 pounds of heroin; 16,390 pounds of marijuana; 389 weapons; 269 vehicles; and two clandestine drug labs.

Click Here to Read the DEA Press Release

DEA Statement on New Department of Justice Marijuana Guidelines

The Department of Justice recently issued guidelines regarding the use of federal resources in investigations and prosecutions in states that have passed laws authorizing the use of marijuana for medical purposes and DEA issued the following statement on these guidelines:

“DEA welcomes the issuance of these clarifying guidelines pertaining to the use of federal investigative and prosecutorial resources in states that have enacted laws authorizing the use of marijuana for medical purposes. These guidelines do not legalize marijuana. It is not the practice or policy of DEA to target individuals with serious medical conditions who comply with state laws authorizing the use of marijuana for medical purposes. Consistent with the DOJ guidelines, we will continue to identify and investigate any criminal organization or individual who unlawfully grows, markets, or distributes marijuana, or other dangerous drugs. Those who unlawfully possess firearms, commit acts of violence, provide drugs to minors, or have ties to other criminal organizations may also be subject to arrest.”

Click Here to Read the Department of Justice Press Release

Underground California Steroid Manufacturing Ring Busted

A ten-month undercover investigation into an illegal anabolic steroid manufacturing ring was announced October 15. The investigation led to three arrests, and the serving of three state search warrants in Sacramento and El Dorado Counties in California . As a result of this investigation, agents seized a large anabolic steroid lab in Elverta , California , more than 500 vials of steroids, and 1,850 capsules of anabolic steroid pills.

In January 2009, the West El Dorado Narcotics Enforcement Team (WENET) began this investigation, and in February, a WENET undercover officer purchased two vials of anabolic steroids from a dealer. During this meeting, the undercover officer learned where the supply of anabolic steroids has been purchased by the dealer for more than a decade. Between February and September 2009, the undercover officer purchased anabolic steroids on multiple occasions and visited the residence of the source of the supply. This case culminated on October 14, when 100 vials of anabolic steroids were delivered to the undercover officer, and three state search warrants were executed which resulted in the seizure of the large clandestine anabolic steroid lab.

Click Here to Read the DEA Press Release

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DID YOU KNOW?

Between last year’s Project Reckoning, which targeted the Gulf Cartel; this year’s Operation Xcellerator that focused on the Sinaloa Cartel, and this week’s Project Coronado which made major inroads into La Familia Michoacana, DEA and our law enforcement partners arrested more than 2300 individuals, and seized $152 million in cash; 29 tons of cocaine; nearly 5,000 pounds of methamphetamine; more than 80,000 pounds of marijuana; and nearly 600 vehicles. These massive operations against the Mexico-based cartels have helped DEA deny drug traffickers $12 billion over the past four years. For more information on these operations, click here, here, and here.

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Thursday, October 22, 2009

Parents: Hearing About Your Past Acohol and Drug Use May Make Your Teen More Responsible About Their Own Use

Hazelden, a national nonprofit organization that helps people reclaim their lives from the disease of addiction, recently launched a campaign called “Four Generations Overcoming Addiction.” The campaign was inspired by a national survey, conducted by Ipsos Public Affairs for Hazelden, that found parents’ honesty about their own drug and alcohol use when they were young actually made the teens more responsible about their drug and alcohol use.

The survey polled 603 boys and girls aged 15-18 online and 620 parents of teenagers by telephone. Here are some of the key findings:

  • Half of teens say it would make them less likely to use drugs if their parents told them about their own drug use when they were younger.
  • Two-thirds of teens (67%) say their parents have already told them about their experiences with alcohol and other drugs when they were young – and these teens almost unanimously (95%) said that kind of honesty about drug use is a good thing!
  • 74% of teens say they’d turn to their parents as their No. 1 source of advice about the use of alcohol or other drugs, even though 26% have seen their parents drunk or high on alcohol or drugs.
  • Teens who are aware of their parents’ experiences with alcohol or other drugs as teenagers are nearly as likely as those who are not to consider their parents to be role models (90% vs. 93%).

Looking at some of the gender differences in the survey, it was interesting to find that:

  • Teenage girls are more likely than teenage boys to wish their parents would share information about their past alcohol or drug use (74% vs. 61%).
  • Parents of a teenage daughter are more likely to say that they had this discussion because their child asked them about their past alcohol or drug use (48% vs. 31%), while parents of a teenage son are more likely to say that they just brought it up on their own without prompting (82% vs. 71%).
  • Dads are more likely than moms to have spoken with their teenage child on their own initiative without prompting (82% vs. 70%), while moms are more likely than dads to say they were motivated to have a conversation on this topic because a friend or family member had experienced problems with alcohol or drugs (51% vs. 34%).

Brenda Iliff, clinical director of Hazelden’s Women’s Recovery Center, wasn’t too surprised by the differences that came out. Says Iliff, “Women more wired for communication and connection.” That may explain why the girls bring the subject up more than boys and why mothers relate the conversation to other experiences rather than just bringing the topic up without prompting. Iliff also pointed out the shame that women have when it comes to addiction. The stigma attached to women abusing drugs and alcohol may prevent a mom from simply bringing the topic up, while dads might not think twice about it.

When asked what advice she would give to mothers who are also in recovery regarding talking to their kids about their past use, Iliff suggests starting the conversation when they’re young and keeping the conversation going. “Timing is important,” she stresses. “Share information when it is helpful, not just when you get the urge.” For many, these conversations are a part of their own recovery.

So, what’s the message here? Talk to your kids about your past experiences with drugs and/or alcohol. They look to you as a role model and will appreciate your honesty! And don’t be afraid to bring the subject up with your daughter. If she hasn’t brought it up yet, she might be thinking about it.

Hazelden’s “Four Generations Overcoming Addiction” campaign, which also coincides with Hazelden’s 60th anniversary, features a “Four Generations Overcoming Addiction” website offering free videos and conversation guides about drug use and abuse, addiction treatment and recovery; an online library of podcasts featuring personal accounts from four generations of Hazelden alumni, talking about their experiences with addiction and recovery; and Hazelden’s first-ever Recovery Resources Blog, an online home base for news about addiction and recovery.

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Next Stop:The North Pole

source:www.upi.com

Once again, money grubbing tycoon, Bernie Madoff, has managed to dominate headlines, but not for the reasons one may think.

According to the Daily News, this past Tuesday, Madoff was charged with heavy usage of drugs in his workplace earning the Madoff Offices the  nick-name, the “North Pole.” With a  150 years already under his belt this finding was certainly no sleigh ride for Madoff. If he behaves, Santa may shed a few years off of prision time.

Jamila Pringle

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Serious Vaccine Reactions to Now Be Called 'Coincidence'?

Every day Americans wake up to news reports that warn us about the dangers of influenza, especially the new H1N1 “swine flu”.

But swine flu is mild for most people and the virus is not mutating into a more serious form.

Millions of people around the world have recovered from swine flu, and millions more will get sick with fevers, body aches, nasal congestion, cough and sometimes diarrhea and vomiting and recover from it this year and next year without any complications.

Nonetheless, wide-scale vaccination is being encouraged — even though swine flu vaccines have been tested on only a few thousand healthy Americans for a few weeks. There is little or no information about how safe the vaccine is for pregnant women and chronically ill or disabled children.

If you or your child are injured from getting a flu swine flu shot, you are on your own. Congress has shielded the vaccine manufacturers and any person giving swine flu shots from lawsuits if people get hurt.

There is no funded government vaccine injury compensation program for swine flu vaccine.

Do NOT let a doctor or anyone else tell you that a serious health problem you or your child experiences after vaccination is a coincidence and allow more shots to be given until you know for sure.

The most tragic cases of vaccine injury occur when vaccine reaction symptoms are dismissed as a ‘coincidence” and more vaccines are given that result in more severe symptoms — and sometimes end with permanent brain and immune system damage or death.

But while Americans are still debating whether to roll up their sleeves for a swine flu shot, companies have already figured it out: vaccines are good for business.

Drug companies have sold $1.5 billion worth of swine flu shots, in addition to the $1 billion for seasonal flu they booked earlier this year. These inoculations are part of a much wider and rapidly growing $20 billion global vaccine market.

“The vaccine market is booming,” says Bruce Carlson, spokesperson at market research firm Kalorama, which publishes an annual survey of the vaccine industry. “It’s an enormous growth area for pharmaceuticals at a time when other areas are not doing so well,” he says, noting that the pipeline for more traditional blockbuster drugs such as Lipitor and Nexium has thinned.  The industry is filling you with fear and fear is control.  Its is part of their marketing.

As always with pandemic flus, taxpayers are footing the $1.5 billion check for the 250 million swine flu vaccines that the government has ordered so far and will be distributing free to doctors, pharmacies and schools. In addition, Congress has set aside more than $10 billion this year to research flu viruses, monitor H1N1’s progress and educate the public about prevention.

Drugmakers pocket most of the revenues from flu sales, with Sanofi-Pasteur, Glaxo Smith Kline and Novartis cornering most of the market.

But some say it’s not just drugmakers who stand to benefit. Doctors collect copayments for special office visits to inject shots, and there have been assertions that these doctors actually profit handsomely from these vaccinations.

Eat quality real foods, stop eating sugar, stop drinking soda, exercise everyday, get adjusted, think well.  Be Healthy.

Stay Well,

 

Dr. Vince Hassel

Obama's medical marijuana directive not likely to change anything

The Obama Administration’s announcement of a new set of guidelines for marijuana prosecutions is sure to please liberals who seek relaxed drug policies and conservatives alike who champion state’s rights, but is it all just political rhetoric, or will the new policy have any teeth at all?

The Justice Department sent a memo Monday to federal prosecutors in the 14 states that allow medical use of marijuana. The memo contained guidelines to implement the policy that Attorney General Eric Holder announced in March: that the Feds should not prosecute medical marijuana patients who are in compliance with state laws.

Deputy Attorney General David Ogden stated that federal prosecutors should focus on major drug traffickers and networks, rather than on those who “are in clear and unambiguous compliance with existing state laws.”  He added that prosecutors can continue to go after those who sell marijuana for profit

What most people don’t understand is that most if not all medical marijuana dispensaries at least in California, are not in compliance with state law. The California medical marijuana laws state that qualified patients can use, possess, grow, and even collectively manufacture marijuana for medical purposes, but it does not authorize anyone to make a profit off of medical marijuana. And you guessed it, the dispensaries are making obscene profits.


Sunday, October 18, 2009

Be my Joneses

Be my Joneses

 

It was said that it is not so much important as to what goes into your mouth but what comes out of it, which is a maker of your character.  A very good word historically used as a negative connotation is Joneses meaning basically neighbor.  It is a saying to “keep up with the Joneses.”  Suggesting that you be in competition with your next door neighbor, sort of like they by a fence and you buy a more expensive fence, they buy a car and you buy a better car.

 

But in actuality the term Joneses is a friendly and non competitive term.  I call on the Hip Hop community to replace the terms “Nigger” and “bitch” with “Joneses.”  I call on them to say in there songs “be my Joneses.”  Because like Rev. AL Sharpton said, you are what you say you are.

 

Let us bring back a community to raise a child mentality and be truly neighbors and not allow ourselves to just simply be victims on the system.  A change in mentality is in our grasp, we can determine our destiny, by changing how we speak and therefore changing how we think.

 

It is like the new Mafia is a non profit organization for the betterment of our communities and not a self destructives movement of surviving by any means, because we are packed in the projects like sardines.  We have to address our circumstances and the situations we are facing such as the expansion of prisons, wars around the world and the AIDS pandemic; single parenthood, illiteracy and the symbolically castrated Blackman?

 

As simple as it may seem, a major step in the right direction as a new greeting of camaraderie (Friendship) is to stop calling your brothers or sisters Niggers and bitches and say “that is my Joneses.”  I call on major Hip Hop community to introduce this concept into their culture.  Personally I really like some Hip Hop and Rap music, but I am embarrassed by it; I think the term Joneses will sell more records and allow the music to reach more homes.  At least consider it. And most importantly it would create a safer community and brotherly and sisterly love among our youth.

A Gang Cop's Reply to Latest Post On the Alex Sanchez Case

As Fairly Civil expected, the previous post on Father Greg Boyle’s filing for the defense in the Alex Sanchez MS-13 case (see here) provoked …um… strong reaction from some members of the Southern California law enforcement community.

One of the more outspoken was the following communication from retired Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Department Sgt. Richard Valdemar:

I worked the Metropolitan FBI Gang Task Force which targeted the Mara Salvatrucha gang (1994-2004). Father Boyle may yet be a Catholic priest, but he has no credibility with this Catholic. His actions in the past have been very anti-police in nature and I believe this comes from his own personal issues and prejudices. I believe his conduct in the past in protecting wanted gang members was immoral and unethical. I believe that he was sanctioned in the past by the Catholic Church. He has a political agenda and his support of Alex Sanchez and Homies Unidos has become an embarrassment, which can be corrected if Alex Sanchez is somehow acquitted.

There could be several valid explanations for the conversation and they do not necessarily mean that Sanchez is not a member of Mara Salvatrucha, or a Shot Caller;

The Los Angeles Mara Salvatrucha gang is made up of sub-groups or cliques. Each of these cliques supposedly operates with some autonomy from the gang in general, while at the same time holding to the identity and goals of the whole gang. These cliques have de-facto charismatic leaders and vote within the clique in matters that do not necessarily involve the whole Mara Salvatrucha. If a MS member, no matter how influential, tried to interfere in the activity of a clique which he was not a member of, he would be rebuked by clique members and leadership that were members of the particular clique who held voting power. Thus you might hear…

CAMARON: Listen man! And-and-and-and I don’t know why you [stutters] come … you know, and you get involved in things, when you are not longer active, man! You see? Better yet, what you should do is to be careful with the “United Homies” and not-not to get involved in our things, you see? [Call breaks] [UI] with us, because you are no longer active, see what I mean?

But I believe the best explanation is that Alex Sanchez (a MS shot caller), by becoming a leader of Homies Unidos, the “respectable” political arm of the Mara Salvatrucha, and associating with the likes of LA Sheriff Leroy Baca, California Senator Tom Hayden and radical political Catholic Priest Greg Boyle, Sanchez insolated himself from the MS cliques and gang street soldiers who now consider him “inactive” in the daily criminal business of the gang. Alex Sanchez was a MS shot caller when I retired in 2004, and I am sure he has not been “jumped out” of the gang or Camaron’s words would have been much more threatening. What Camaron is telling him is, you take care of the Politics and we will handle the dirty business of killing. But they are still part of the same criminal gang.

By the way, did Alex Sanchez (the supposed ex-gang member) upon learning of Camaron’s evil plot, run and inform his mentor, the good Father Boyle, who of course contacted the police so that the crimes could have been prevented? …Never Happened did it?

Sergeant Richard Valdemar

LASD Major Crimes Bureau (retired)

Power serve.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

In the news: Half of cot deaths linked to sleeping with parents

More than half of cot deaths occur when a baby is sleeping with a parent, with drinking or drug-taking by the adult a likely contributory factor, a study suggests.

An analysis of all unexpected infant deaths, from birth to two years old, in a four-year period in the South West showed that the majority occurred when a parent was with the child, often asleep on the sofa…

Here is the full article Times Online (14 October 2009)

I know someone who sadly this happened to recently. The husband was very tired (as normal with a new born) and had a few drinks. He fell asleep on the sofa with his five week old baby on him. Sadly the baby died. It was a complete tragedy.

However there are a few of my friends (and many mums) who do co-sleep with their babies, in bed, in a planned and safe way. The babies are generally by their mothers, on the outside of the bed. This has been happening for generations, in all countries.

I think the important message to get across, regardless of socio-economic group, is do not cosleep with your baby if you have been drinking/smoking and do not sleep on sofas with babies.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

the carrot purée looked like a frenzied crime scene

These people are officially off their heads:

A terrace of houses in an exclusive new enclave in Ranelagh come with home cinemas, walled gardens – and are ready to move into , writes MICHAEL PARSONS

Monsieur Doorley memorably noted that “the carrot purée looked like a frenzied crime scene” and braised pig’s cheek was “incorporated into a kind of mousseline, sandwiched between two slices of just-cooked celeriac”. Oh dear. Not quite “dinner-in-the-middle-of-the-day” fare.

Fast-forward 12 months and, according to the smouldering chef, “big spenders just disappeared overnight”, the liquidator arrived, the shutters came down and the Michelin starlight dimmed.

Today, Mint is “to let” and stands like an Ozymandian reminder of our national folie de grandeur . “Look upon my works, ye Mighty, and despair!”

Well, not yet. Dublin 6, the country’s second smartest postcode (for now) isn’t quite on the ropes. There’s still a palpable air of affluence in Ranelagh where the ambience is not dissimilar to London’s Islington – spiritual home of the left-leaning intelligentsia.

The Guardian is alarmingly conspicuous in the newsagent’s and tapas socialists (formerly known as smoked salmon comrades) edgily coexist with a slightly sniffy old money crowd. This quintessential urban village, with excellent public transport (including the Luas), a good mix of shops and restaurants, and some of Ireland’s very best schools, is one of the city’s most desirable locations.

Who the fuck are these people talking about?

Perfect for kicking off those Louboutin slingbacks, pouring a glass of Moët et Chandon and finally watching that boxed-set of Sex and the City (ah, nostalgia!) while Mr Big unwinds with a fat Cohiba after a hard day transferring loans to Nama.

These are houses built for a society with great expectations. They’re fully furnished and decorated – down to paintings on the walls and sequinned scatter-cushions in the bedrooms – and are ready for immediate occupation.

Do they seriously believe that there are people out there who are stuck for a place to stay but have 3 million euros to spend while they try to fuck the population through NAMA. What multi millionaire actually needs a stranger to pick out their paintings before they move in?

It is the same people who wrote this:

Number One Clarendon Row is a rooftop development of four bright, airy, penthouse apartments – and number 3 is up for grabs at €895,000. While this could hardly be considered a steal, it could have gone for upwards of €1.5 million at the height of the boom. The rental opportunities are good; approximately €3,000 a month wouldn’t be impossible, says Reilly.

With the apartment comes a parking space accessed by the niftiest of parking lifts (not for the claustrophobic, but at least your apartment will compensate for that), wooden floors, solid wood doors and a fully fitted kitchen with a range of slick silver Neff appliances.

That said, it doesn’t feel like an apartment in which a whole lot of cooking will be done. Entertaining? Yes. Cocktail mixing? Definitely. Cooking casseroles while the baby dozes in the stroller? Perhaps not.

riiighte

Somehow, I think not. While the Sex and the City comparisons may well be enough to convince even the most sceptical young career woman (with €895,000 to spare) to take the plunge, this apartment screams young bachelor at the top of its bright, airy, lungs.

Sex and the city my hole. Do they think someone with 900k to spare smokes crack?

Modestly-sized bedroom? Well, that’d be a man, then, without the need for extra wardrobe space or a sit-down area for make-up application. A man who’d be perfectly happy to set up a widescreen television, Xbox and cocktail cabinet and invite the guys over for a few games of Texas Hold ’em in the new pad. Then out on the town to chat up some soon-to-be-impressed young ladies.

In reality if a ‘guy’ made a cocktail at a game of poker he would deserve to have the shit kicked out of him. They should stick to the beer and whiskey or else they are guaranteed to be puking on the streets outside coppers.

irishtimes.com

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Senator Wants to Know About Medicare Shift on Eye Drugs

Sen. Herb Kohl wants to know whether Genentech was involved in a recent Medicare shift that could prompt eye doctors to use a more expensive drug. Genentech, which recently became part of Roche, says it wasn’t involved.

As we noted recently, Medicare introduced a new payment code that cut payments to doctors for small doses of Avastin, a cancer drug that many doctors use off-label to treat patients with macular degeneration. That could prompt doctors to switch to Lucentis, a similar but far more expensive drug approved for macular degeneration. (When used to treat the eye, Avastin costs less than $50 per dose; Lucentis costs about $2,000.)

Genentech had “no involvement” in the government’s decision to create a new payment code, a company spokeswoman told the Health Blog

Ophthalmologists are now using Avastin about as much as Lucentis, according to Dr. Philip Rosenfeld, a retina specialist in Florida. Both drugs are sold by Genentech, so its revenues would increase if eye doctors used less Avastin and more Lucentis. Rosenfeld, who was an early proponent of using Avastin in the eye, told us he thinks the change could cost the government nearly $500 million a year, based on estimates of usage he and other eye doctors have compiled.

In a recent letter to CMS, the agency that oversees Medicare, Kohl wrote that he was “disturbed to learn from members of the medical eye care community that Genentech may have communicated directly with CMS officials about this proposed coding change, reportedly suggesting that CMS was over-paying for the small amounts of Avastin being used off-label for intraocular treatments.”

Kohl wants all communication between Genentech and CMS on the matter. CMS says it is currently reviewing the letter and will respond to the senator.

Bonus Reading: Here’s Kohl’s letter.

Photo: iStockphoto

The 10 Biggest Mistakes Growers Make

Just thought we’d share some helpful tips on what NOT to do when growing cannabis:

  • 1. Don´t Over water – Over watering kills weed plants. Water once the top few inches of the soil dry out.  Hydroponics is harder to over water because rockwool has such excellent drainage properties. As long as the rockwool cubes are not sitting in liquid it is virtually impossible to over water a hydroponic setup. A hydroponic setup could either be watered constantly as the drip method, or once to three times a day as in the flood and drain method.
  • 2. Don´t Tell People – Why? They will only be jealous. People love to feel important and that is why they will tell other people; because others will listen to them. – Keep it to yourself.
  • 3. Touch/kill Germinating Seeds – Please have some patience. It sometimes takes 10 days for a seed to sprout. The paper towel method is recommended but be careful  because you must handle the seeds when transferring them from the paper towel to your growing medium. This must be done with extreme care!
  • 4. Grow seeds from seeded weed – One of the greatest disappointments known to the growing man.

90% of what the final product will be is in the seed´s genetics and has little to do with the environment the plant is grown in.

Many get their hands on the seed and think they have a gold mine. They will probably grow something like this: hermaphrodites, tall late flowering females coupled with early flowering males. This is because the only pollen that could have produced the seed was from a hermaphrodite or a very stunted and late flowering male the grower did not notice. Unless you are prepared for possible disappointment don´t use “unknown”  cannabis seeds. This is why people buy seeds from seedbanks such as Sensi Seeds, White Label Seeds, Weed Seed Shop or Flying Dutchmen.

  • 5. Don´t Over fertilize -Fertilize after first 2 spiked leaves appear follow the label. DON´T FERTILIZE EVERY TIME YOU WATER!!! Start with 25% and work your way up!  Leach the plants with lots of pure water every 2-4 weeks.  If the leaves suddenly twist or fold under, Leach and Spray with pure water for several days!
  • 6. Don´t Under fertilize – Under fertilizing is less common but it happens. If you are one of those people that likes to give the plant just enough nutrients make sure you use a organic soil mixture with blood meal and bone meal or some slow release fertilizer with micro nutrients.
  • 7. Don´t Start Too Early Outdoors – For several reasons! If you are starting outdoors June 1 is perfect. But if I start earlier I will get bigger buds right? Probably Wrong! Its strange but usually true: Plants started in early spring will get big but they will take significantly longer to start flowering. This is because at the peak vegetative period they sense the light cycles getting longer and longer, until June 21. But they don´t realize that its time to flower yet. Finally in the middle of August the plant says “HEY” “time to flower already” and it produces buds in August and September or later they will be tall as trees but thinner buds due to the fact that the sun is not as strong in September. Now if the ganja plants were put out later, as soon as they get a foot off the ground they say “what´s going on” I am just in early veggie and the light hours aren´t getting longer in fact SHORTER” Then the plants go crazy and since the sun is so bright in July and August you get amazing 6 foot trees that are heavier than the plants started in April!!! in addition to finishing earlier the late started plants are not nearly as noticeable.

Indoors is the same for different reasons. The light cannot penetrate more than a foot or two. So flower when plants are a foot tall. If you wait longer because you want bigger yields, you will get smaller yields and wait longer for them.

  • 8. Don´t Start too Late Outdoors – Plants need atleast a few weeks growing time before flowering starts as the summer days get shorter.  Starting too late in the summer will lead to small and/or immature plants by the time the season ends (harvest time)
  • 9. Don´t Provide A Bad Environment – Always provide air circulation and fresh air even during the night cycle is fine. All the air indoors should be replaced every 5-10 minutes.  Humidity between 30-70% temp aim for around 75-85´ Even seedlings need a gentle fan to strengthen the stems.
  • 10. Don´t Harvest Too Early – We know its hard. You see the buds and resin forming at a rapid rate. The buds are potent and you feel tempted to chop em down! The only problem is that another 25% of the weight will form in 2 more weeks. Wait until the plants have totally stopped growing and the white pistils are at least 50-75% brown.

*NOTE: Outdoors if security is a factor make your own call on when to sacrifice the fields. Also take buds continuously in case of thieves.*

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Drugs, Lego, Testicles etc.

This is too complicated a metaphor for an anti-drug video.

Drugs are like lego?

I never really wanted to write a post about drugs, but here I am doing it. So fuck it.

When you start taking drugs it’s fairly natural to think about drug education and why it apparently didn’t work particularly well for you. I first knew about the effects of drugs after hearing that that my friend’s dad had taken esctasy and jumped up and down their marital bed for an hour, which to be honest sounded like awesome fun.

My drug education took a far more sinister and inexplicable turn later in Primary School when we had a fireman come give us a lecture on things not to do i.e: climb trees, set things on fire, set ourselves on fire, take drugs, put our heads in plastic bags (incidently, how many times did you get told not do that?! Who do you know that EVER suffocated from a bag over the head)?
…I’m not totally sure that firemen have the authority to give talks on anything other than fire safety. But anyway, this fireman started lecturing us about flames in wooded areas and things and then, most memorably, he told us innocent 10 year old children to watch out when walking the streets in case of treading on a hypodermic needle previously used to inject heroin, lest we catch AIDS. Yes, REALLY.

What was I talking about again?

Oh yeah, so instead of being afraid to take drugs I was afraid to tread on anything sharp, which I wasn’t particularly into doing before that anyway.

My secondary school drug education was mixed in with a whole day’s talk that went something like:
Don’t do drugs, Don’t have sex and Check your tits for tumors

Best bit of that information day was when fake bollocks were thrown into the assembly hall, so we could feel for cancerous lumps (nice) . A pair of plastic knackers hit this girl right in the face. Balls right between the eyes. Good times.
Anyway, the drug bit just implied that if I smoked a joint one day I’d pretty much be injecting heroin into my urethra within the week. Turns out not really, but if you smoke weed everyday you’ll probably eventually take everything but the ‘bad drugs’ (meth/coke/smack) once you get to University (sorry, but it’s true, but you probably won’t die so it’s cool, trust me). It might fuck a few other things up though.

I can’t really remember where I was going with this…

I kind of feel ambivilant about the whole drug thing because half of my friendship group is held together tenuously by mutal drug use, which is completely shitty. One of the most hurtful things that’s ever happened to me is knowing that one of my ex-best friends claims she had a bad trip on acid because I was around, and we weren’t getting on particularly well at the time. The thought of that really fucks me up. The reason we weren’t getting on was partially my fault for not dealing with things well, and it’s like I affected her on an existential level that I can’t really ever do anything about. Dark.

I reckon that’s about all I wanna say about this now actually.

Suppressed report raises questions about drug policy


Suppressed report raises questions about drug policy

 

 


VANCOUVER SUN JUNE 18, 2009 EDITORIAL 


In 1991, an editorial in the British Journal of Addiction condemned theinordinate amount of resources devoted to drug law enforcement, and compared the war on drugs to the witch hunts of the past.

It’s an apt comparison, since drug warriors around the world are influenced more by myths, stereotypes and propaganda than by solid evidence. And when confronted by evidence that conflicts with themyths, stereotypes and propaganda of the drug war, the warriors seek to bury it rather than address it head on.

The 1995 Cocaine Project, a joint effort of the World Health Organization and the United Nations Interregional Crime and Justice Research Institute, is a case in point.

You might never have heard of the Cocaine Project, and you might wonder why we’re discussing a report that’s 14 years old. The answer is simple: The WHO has never published the report, and even denied its existence, at least until last week when it was leaked to a Netherlands-based think-tank, The Transnational Institute.

This is unfortunate, given that the report sought the advice of experts from around the world, assessed cocaine use fromAustralia to Zimbabwe, and is the largest global study on cocaineever conducted.

But a brief look at some of the study’s conclusions and recommendations reveals why it has been buried for the past 14 years.

For example, the report condemns the ”over-reliance on law enforcement measures,” and recommends that “education, treatment and rehabilitation” programs be increased to re-balance our approach to problematic drug use.

Perhaps because the report was buried, this over-reliance on enforcement continues today, and many experts are saying the same thing the WHO said 14 years ago. But such recommendations don’t sit well with many drug warriors, who remain convinced of the seminal importance of law enforcement in decreasing drug use.

Reasonable people can disagree on how best to deal with drug abuse. But the facts are a different thing entirely, and what bothered the drug warriors the most wasn’t the report’s recommendations, but its statements of fact — that is, its findings about the effects of cocaineuse.

The report notes, for instance, that health problems from “the use of legal substances, particularly alcohol and tobacco, are greater than health problems from cocaine use.”

If that weren’t enough, it states that “few experts describe cocaine as invariably harmful to health,” and that problems “are mainly limited to high-dosage users.” Indeed, “occasional cocaine use does not typically lead to severe or even minor physical or social problems . . . a minority of people start using cocaine or related products, use casually for a short or long period, and suffer little or no negative consequences, even after years of use.”

To top it off, the report states that the ”use of coca leaves . . . has positive therapeutic, sacred and social functions for indigenous Andean populations” — a reference to South American aboriginals who have used coca leaves for thousands of years.

Now, however politically incorrect these conclusions are, they are either factually correct or incorrect. If they’re incorrect, they ought to be countered vigorously; if correct, they ought to inform our drug policy.

Instead, the WHO buried the report, largely as a result of pressure from the United States

It’s interesting to note that in 2008, the WHO reported that the U.S.hasthe highest rate of cocaine use in the world. Interesting, but not surprising, for no drug control approach can be “proven” if it is theresult of intentionally ignoring the evidence.

In fact, the U.S. provides a perfect example of the folly of attending tothe evidence one likes, and ignoring the rest.

Now that the WHO report has been published by the Transnational Institute, it’s time for all countries, including Canada, to take a long, hard look at their drug policy, and at the evidence, and to ensure thatthe former is informed by the latter.

© Copyright (c) The Vancouver Sun

 


http://www.lewrockwell.com/pr/cocaine-study-supressed.html

World Health Organization Global CocaineProject Study Suppressed by the United States for 13 Years
by Devin Powell [Lew Rockwell]
 
In March 1995, the WHO and UNICRI announced the publication of the results of a global study on cocaine. Information had been collected in 22 cities and 19 countries about the use of the coca leaf and its derivatives, its effects on consumers and thecommunity as a whole, and the answers of the governments concerned to the cocaine problem. Preparations for the research began in 1991. Over more than two years, three sub-projects were developed which “proposed to collect up-to-date information about cocaine at regional and national levels.” The study was never published despite being “the largest study ever on cocaineuse.”
Reference to the study can be found in the UNICRI (United Nations Interregional Institute of Crime Investigation) library, where it is still marked as “RESTRICTED.”
The Director of the PSA, Hans Emblad, sent a copy of theBriefing Kit to the United Nations Drugs Control Programme (UNDCP), where it caused a sensation. Two months later, on 9 May 1995 in Commission B of the forty-eighth General Health Assembly, the destiny of these years of labour was determined bythe intervention of the representative of the United States of America, Mr Boyer. He expressed his government’s concern withthe results of this study:
The representative said that his government considered suspending funds to WHO research if
“activities related to drugs failed to reinforce proven drug control approaches.”
 ”which seem to make a case for the positive uses ofcocaine, claiming that use of the coca leaf did not lead to noticeable damage to mental or physical health, that thepositive health effects of coca leaf chewing might be transferable from traditional settings to other countries and cultures and that coca production provides financial benefits to peasants.”

 In reply, the representative of the Director General defended thestudy claiming it was

 ”an important and objective analyses done by the experts,” which “represented the views of the experts, and did not represent the stated policy position of the WHO, and WHO’s continuing policy, which was to uphold the scheduling underthe convention.” It was not the intention to publish the study in its current form, the representative explained as it might lead to “misunderstanding.” The debate concluded with agreement on a peer review by “genuine experts.”

The United States Government considered that, if WHO activities relating to drugs failed to reinforce proven drug control approaches, funds for the relevant programmes should be curtailed. In view of the gravity of the matter, he [Boyer] askedthe Director-General for an assurance that “{WHO would dissociate itself from the conclusions of the study and that, in substance abuse activities, an approach would not be adopted that could be used to justify the continued production of coca.” 

Peer review is a fundamental part of every scientific study, including those of the WHO. The timeline set for the peer review procedure was programmed in the terms of reference as to be concluded by 30 September 1997. In fact, from March 1995, names of potential researchers were listed and, in accordance with procedure, sent to theUS National Institute of Drug Abuse (NIDA) in charge of selecting thecandidates. Over the course of almost two years, an intensive fax exchange took place whereby the PSA proposed names and NIDA answered by refusing each and every one of them.

There has been no formal end to this “Cocaine Initiative.” The majority of the participating scientists never heard what was done with their work.

See also: “Coca, cocaine and the international conventions,” Transnational Institute UNGASS Review, April 2003.

See also: “The WHO cocaine report the US didn’t want you to see,” Transform Drug Policy Foundation, June 10, 2009.

The document was obtained by the unaligned think tank, theTransnational Institute. This summary was provided on WikiLeaks.

 June 24, 2009


 3 March 1995 Cocaine Project highlights

 • The WHO/UNICRI Cocaine Project is the largest study on cocaineever undertaken. The study was made possible through the generous contribution of the Italian Ministry of Interior. The project produced: 

Country Profiles on Cocaine from 19 developed and developing countries;
Key Informant Study reports from drug users and others with an extensive
knowledge of cocaine use from 19 cities on almost every continent;
A Natural History Study report on four sites in South America and Africa.

 • The research methods developed for the project can now be used to collect information on cocaine in other countries and information on other drugs, and to monitor trends in the future.

 • It is not possible to describe an “average cocaine user”. An enormous variety was found in the types of people who use cocaine,the amount of drug used, the frequency of use, the duration and intensity of use, the reasons for using and any associated problems they experience.

 • However, three general patterns of use were found across theparticipating countries:

1. The snorting of cocaine hydrochloride (by far the most popular use of coca products worldwide).

2. The smoking of coca paste and crack, and the injection ofcocaine ’ hydrochloride, are minority behaviours, and tend to be found among the socially marginalised.
3. The traditional use of coca leaves among some indigenous populations in Bolivia, Ecuador, Peru, northern Chile and Argentina as well as some groups inBrazil and Colombia.

• Generally cocaine users consume a range of other drugs as well. There appears to be very little “pure” cocaine use. Overall, fewer people in participating countries have used cocaine than have used alcohol, tobacco or cannabis. Also, in most countries, cocaine is notthe drug associated with the greatest problems.

• Health problem; from the use of legal substances, particularly alcohol and tobacco, are greater than health problems from cocaine use.

• Few experts describe cocaine as invariably harmful to health.Cocaine-related problems are widely perceived to be more common and more severe for intensive, high-dosage users and very rare and much less severe for occasional, low-dosage users.

• A majority of health consequences may not be directly attributed tococaine use. Cocaine often contributes to or exacerbates theconditions reported, rather than causing them.

• There are widespread myths bet few scientific studies of therelationship between cocaine and sexual behaviour. One finding was that sexual problems seem to occur among high-dosage regularcocaine users.

• A range of mental health problems are associated with cocaine use, though they are mainly limited to high-dosage users.

• There is a complex relationship between cocaine use and crime, particularly theft and violence.

• Use of coca leaves appears to have no negative health effects and has positive therapeutic, sacred and social functions for indigenous Andean populations.

• Responses to cocaine-related health problems are poorly coordinated, inconsistent, often culturally inappropriate and generally ineffective.

 • Education, treatment and rehabilitation programmes should be increased to counterbalance the current over-reliance on law enforcement measures. They should not necessarily concentrate exclusively on cocaine, bet should be integrated into a mix of strategies to deal effectively with a range of drugs.

• In many settings, educational and prevention programmes generally do not dispel myths [that] sensationalize, perpetuate stereotyping and misinformation.

• Most treatment services are poorly coordinated, often being culturally inappropriate and ineffective in achieving rehabilitation. Those most likely to be denied access when seeking treatment are the poor and heavily dependent.

• In most settings, people who have enough money to pay for cocaine - and who are familiar with a supplier – are able to obtain the drug despite its illegality.

• In many settings, cocaine users complained about the level of corruption among law enforcement officials and alleged abuses of human rights. Users made it clear that such abuses and exploitation would generally not be effective in changing their drug use behaviour.

• Coca paste use may be increasing in Andean countries and crack, use appears to be increasing in Nigeria and Brazil.

• Cocaine injection rates appear to be relatively stable and at low levels relative to the injection of other drugs.

• Most countries believe there needs to be more assessment of theadverse effects of current drug policies and strategies.

• Some countries have shifted the focus of their drug policy to a broad range of goals in which abstinence is appropriate for non-users and some users of coca products, while other users are encouraged to usethe drug as safely as possible.

Please contact (for further information): 

Hans Emblad (Tel: 791 4315)

Mario Argandona (Tel: 791 4309)

Andrew Ball (Tel: 791 4792)

 

Programme on Substance Abuse

World Health Organization

20, avenue Appia

1211 Geneva 27

Switzerland

Fax: 791 4851

 

First Meeting of Project Advisers, Geneva, 24-28 August 1992

 

Dr Wilson Acuda. Zimbabwe

Mr Anthony Henman, United Kingdom

Professor Francesco Bruno. Italy

Dr David C. Lewis. USA

Dr Peter Cohen. The Netherlands

Dr Michael MacAvoy. Australia

Dr Patricia Erickson. Canada

Professor Michael Olatawura, Nigeria

Dr Erik Fromberg, The Netherlands

Dr John Saunders, Australia

Dr Michael Gossop, United Kingdom

Dra Elvia Velasquez de Pabon. Colombia

 

The implementation and development of the WHO/UNICRI CocaineProject was under the charge of the following researchers:

 

Advisory Committee:

 

Ms Maria Elena Andreotti, UNICRI  

Dr David Lewis, Providence. USA

Dr Mario Argandoña, WHO/PSA1

Dr Michael MacAvoy, Sydney, Australia

Dr Andrew Ball, WHO/PSA

Dr Michael Olatawura, Ibadan, Nigeria

Professor Francesco Bruno, Rome, ltaly

Dr Hernan Olivera, Cochabamba, Bolivia

 

Research Coordinators:

 

For the Key Informant Study & Country Profile:

 

For the Natural History Study:

Ms Julie Hando, Sydney, Australia

Mr Aurelio Diaz, Barcelona, Spain

Mr Bruce Flaherty, Sydney, Australia

Ms Mila Barruti, Barcelona, Spain

Dr Ruthbeth Finerman, Memphis, USA

 

 

 

For the Review on Current Knowledge on Cocaine:

 

Professor Francesco Bruno, Rome. Italy

Dr Gianfranco Costanzo, Rome, ltaly

Dr Giancarlo Bascone, Rome, ltaly

Dr Francesca Fasoli, Rome, Italy

Dr Giuliano Bestiaco, Rome, Italy

Dr Paola Medde, Rome, ltaly

Dr Iliana Bona, Rome, Italy

Dr Paolo Di Pasquale, Rome, Italy

 

Principal Site Investigators:

 

Dr Wilson Acuda, Harare, Zimbabwe

Dr Elson Lima, Rio de Janeiro. Brazil

Dr. Bruce Alexander,Vancouver, Canada

Dr Michael MacAvoy, Sydney, Australia

Dr Al Sayed Al Kott, Cairo, Egypt

Dr Vinicio Moreno, Quito, Ecuador

Dr Bengt Andersson, Lund, Sweden

Dr Solange A. Nappo, Sao Paulo. Brazil

Dr Bert Bieleman,Groningen,The Netherlands

Dr Rafael Navarro, Lima, Peru

Dr Marcela Butron. Cochabamba, Bolivia

Dr Michael Olatawura, Ibadan, Nigeria

 

WHO’s Programme on Substance Abuse:

 

Dr E.A. Carlini. Sao Paulo. Brazil

Dr Hernan Olivera. Cochabamba. Bolivia

Dr Don Des Jarlais, New York, U.S.A.

Dr Arturo Ortiz, Mexico DF, Mexico

Dr Galina A. Korchagina. St Petersburg, Russian Fed.

Dr Craig Reinarman, San Francisco. U.S.A.

Dr Ibrahim Latheef, Male, Maldives

Dr Tony Toneatto, Toronto. Canada

Dr Ho Young Lee. Seoul, Republic of Korea

Dr Robert Trotter, Flagstaff, U.S.A.

Dr David Lewis. Providence. USA

Dr Kerstin Tunving2, Lund. Sweden

 

 

 

PSA Secretariat Preparation of Brief Summaries:

 

Mr Hans Emblad, Director, PSA

Mr Dave Burrows, Sydney, Australia

Dr Mario Argandoña, Chief, TAC3

Dr Ruthbeth Finerman, Memphis. USA

Dr Andrew Ball. Medical Officer, TAC

Ms Aimee Gilliland, Memphis. USA

Ms Penny Ward, Secretary, TAC

Ms Hanni Hudson. Memphis, USA

Ms Luz Bancale. Secretary, TAC

Ms Cynthia Martin, Memphis. USA

Mr Scott Rutter, Memphis. USA

This work has only been possible with the collaboration of manycocaine users and keyinformants, whose contributions are very much appreciated.


Comment:

World wide prohibition of illicit drugs is a proven failure. 
Many references point to the fact illicit drug production is encouraged and their export facilitated by the U.S. CIA and other “intelligence” orgnaizations. The accrued profits of the drug trade help the financing of  CIA, etc.,  ”black ops” that facilitatethe overthrow of leftist governments that the world’s oligarchs do not like. The United States’ track record of political and economic interference in ‘Third World’ nations speaks for itself.


If the US does not accept the real experts on drug use then why should one accept any “expert” when it is patently obvious that, at least in the eyes of US bureaucrats, a university degree will mean nothing unless recipients support the status quo. So much for ‘peer review’ and the credibility of the WHO.
                                                   
Croft Woodruff
Coquitlam BC CANADA 

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Saturday, October 10, 2009

Drama Queenz- Chapter 1

Hey!
Here is the first chapter of my story about 4 girls who have A LOT of drama in their lives! ENJOY! And comment please!
Your Favorite Bitch,
Drama Queen (xoxo)

Erin Herkley
In eighth grade, I was the pretty, popular, rich girl. I had a best friend named Vanessa Rosen, two loving parents who spoiled me with whatever I wanted, and a Yorkie named Penny. I had everything (literally), that is, until I met Nick Pentoz a.k.a. Crasher. He was the new kid in class and my new crush! I knew that I could put him under my spell and make him fall in love with me in no time, so, I talked to him and I knew I was in love! The sound of his voice, his personality, his sexy smile! And just like I thought he asked me out on a date! I was screaming with joy on the inside, but on the outside I was cool and confident.
As soon as I got to lunch, I told my best friend Vanessa about Crasher and our date, she didn’t seem to pleased. “ He just seems like a real trouble maker, I would watch out for him.” I didn’t care what anyone thought, I was in love, and no one was going to change my mind!
When I got to the movie theater where I was meeting Crasher, I looked around and couldn’t find him, “He better not of stood me up!” I thought to myself. Then I finally spotted him, oh how he looked so hot in his v-neck shirt, I could see his six-pack through it. But wait! Did he just pull out a bag of weed?!?!
TO BE CONTINUED…

Claire Bassol
Ahhh…Jake Pierce. He was my first kiss, first boyfriend, first love, first guy I lost my virginity to, first almost everything! We were madly in love, we did everything together, and I couldn’t imagine my life without him and his navy blue eyes. That is, until we had a HORRIBLE breakup. I’ll tell you from the beginning…
Jake and I had just got back from the Homecoming Dance where we had an absolute blast! We were the envy of everyone cuz we looked so hot! Him in his tux, tight in all the right places [if you know what I mean ] and his wavy brunette hair combed to perfection. While I was flaunting my new Prada dress with my strawberry blonde hair flowing to the beat of the drums. Later, we decided to crash at his place since his parents were away for their anniversary, and I think we had the same thing in mind…
The next day at school, after me and Jake (you know what) we were so happy, we never felt more in love before! But then I started to notice everyone staring at me, and not in a good way. I decided to see what was going on so I went up to Amber O’Neil and she was nodding her head in disapproval. “What? What are you all staring at?!” I said annoyed. “ Oh I think you know.” Amber snapped. “ NO! I DON’T WHAT’S GOING ON!” I yelled. “We heard you and Jake had sex! That’s what!” then she walked away. I couldn’t believe it. Jake told everyone! Now my reputation is ruined! I’m going to be known as a slut for the rest of my life!!! That was it. I said some serious talking to do to Jake; some talking that could change our relationship…forever…
TO BE CONTINUED…

Becca LeVane
Standing in the bathroom stall, so scared, I’m about to piss myself.
Waiting, and wondering if the test will say…pregnant!
About 3 weeks ago, I went to a party. It was the party of the year! Jessica Saints’ homecoming party, the most popular girl invited me to her party! No way was I going to miss it! And I made a promise to my self that today I would be the life of the party, not the shy girl, who gets straight A’s, and still goes shopping with her mom. Today was my night, to breakout!
I just got to Jessica’s house with my best friend Paige Melenas by my side, and when I got in, I couldn’t believe my eyes! So many hot senior boys! And particularly one caught my eye.
I was dancing and having a blast, trying to get closer to that hot senior boy with the blonde surfer boy hair. Then before I knew it I bumped into him, “ oh sorry” I said embarrassed. “ No, it’s cool, hey you’re a sophomore right?” he asked. I couldn’t believe it! He knew who I was! “ Yeah, lucky me.” I said, trying to sound cool. “ I recognize you, you were that hot girl in my gym class last year!” he said surprised. Holy Shit! He thinks I’m hot?! This is definitely the best night of my life! “ Thanks” I said shyly. “Do you wanna go upstairs and get some privacy? This music’s giving me a headache.” I was relieved then,” Sure!”
When we got upstairs, he bought me into a bedroom. I was guessing it was Jessica’s. Then all of the sudden he laid me on the bed and started to KISS ME! In my head I thought I shouldn’t be doing this, I don’t even have a condom! But then again, I was gonna breakout, and who could resist those sparkly green eyes…TO BE CONTINUED…

But why not?

SAT 10 OCT 2009

08:40 HRS GMT +1

 

Trying to tear my hands away from a bag of Lays (or Walkers) salt and vinegar crisps towards this keypad seems like a chore. I hate drink, i hate drugs, i hate cigarettes, i hate junk food, i hate luring random guys into bed for a comfort fuck…although half the time its them carrying a very drunk me into their bed. I hate needing things outside of myself to make me feel normal or happy. Come on isn’t that what it’s really about? We convince ourselves we love these things, for many strange reasons, one being to feel like part of a collective…but we hate them. 

I’m just out of the shower after feeling the very strong need to wash away the wretched stench of B.O from the guy i just…half fucked. 

 

(Okay girl pack away the crisps or you’ll never get this off your chest. 

….last handful….okay their under the bed.

 

….no i lost my muse, out they come again.)

 

Before the shower i tried sleeping off the fact that i just walked out on a guy who pretended he didn’t wake up and hear me leave his bed, get dressed, look for my underpants, unlock his bedroom door and slam it behind me. All this after I copped out of sex half way through our endeavor by telling him i was too tired. Which was half true. I also told him he was too big for me and too sore…which was entirely true! I know thats something you guys probably don’t want to hear while you’re trying to come (however flattering it may be….) but what am i suppose to do? Take the pain? Seriously I don’t get it! Why are most of the men i fuck too big for me? Is it God’s revenge because I am not being chaste?

Well those of us out there who have at least half a brain know what religion is and should understand that when I say God, I don’t mean a vengeful, spiteful “man in the sky” with ridiculous rules and commandments….that is so out-dated and religion is obsolete. It’s pretty much common accepted knowledge now isn’t it? Well those who are reading this are probably well-read anyway. But when I say God I mean the universal power that animates all life, guides us, sends us signs as coincidences to let us know which direction to take next. Some may call it Karma, Source Energy, the Unified Field, ‘Collective’, ‘Higher’ or ‘All-Knowing’ Consciousness, the Universe or…’God’.

 

But anyway why do I do it? Why do I fuck random guys? Well to be brutally honest with myself, it’s a lack of my own self-esteem. In terms of this particular guy tonight, he was genuinely nice. Not the best looking, actually the first really chubby guy i’ve shagged (how shallow of me), but nice. He was really sweet. I felt safe with him, cared for, appreciated, admired, spoiled….wanted. What every girl wants. All the emotions that I never but should shower myself with. So why don’t I? 

Ego and lack of self-appreciation. Also, the world tells you not to be ‘full of yourself’. Society says ‘oh look at her she fucking loves herself!’. No one wants to be ‘that’ girl. The girl everyone talks about because basically they have no self-esteem themselves. Why do we care so much about what people say? People talk. People always have and always will talk. We know this. Everyone who has at least one little hang-up about themselves, bitches about someone else. Its our way of making ourselves feel better. Its our way of saying “well she has that so if I bring that to everyone’s attention hopefully they won’t notice what’s wrong with me”. When are we going to grow up…as a society and as a species? When are we going to start seeing ourselves as the other and the other as ourselves? When are we going to start loving ourselves for who we TRULY are. When are we going to see our inner-connectedness with everything and everyone. When are we going to start showing our true nature…love and compassion not anger, hatred, jealousy and greed.

But back to tonight; the underlying reason is the same reason with every guy. Okay i’ll admit that a lot of the time its so i can turn around the next day and say to my friends “I pulled that guy”. Even if I don’t (or can’t!) tell them about it, it’s still a self esteem thing. A personal little ego boost. But if I be completely honest with myself it’s because I’m secretly hoping that guy, the random guy I have chosen that night (and almost always chosen purely because of attractiveness), i’m hoping is the guy who i will wake up to the next morning to find staring at me with admiration. The guy who will tell me he loved watching me sleep and squeeze my body so tightly and so close to him in a way that feels like he will never let go. Someone to need me, someone to love me.

Now ladies, would I be right in saying there’s quite a few of us like this out there? Be honest. Who feels the same way? We’re hopeless romantics! 

But it’s pure insecurity. Looking for some guy to find something in me that I obviously can’t see. Some value in me to show me what is special about me….because I can’t see. If I could see it I wouldn’t need that random guy to show it to me.

So what is the universe or God or Karma saying to me? – “Eh hem….sorry to be watching in on the action but this ones gonna be sore too. I’m not going to let you enjoy this sexual experience because you are doing it for ALL the wrong reasons missy!” 

There does come a time when you meet someone, and it’s just right. Everything goes well and you are perfectly fine walking away the next morning without an ‘i’ll call you’, feeling satisfied and full-filled. I think this is when Karma is saying “okay nature calls, we do have our natural urges and needs too and girl, you’ve been holding out way too long!”

But there comes a time in a girl’s life when you need to take a step back and say “What’s it all for? Am i taking care of me right now?…Am I comfortable with myself, my needs, my desires?…Do I love myself?…and am I so complete with love that | am ready to share that love with someone else?” An excess of self-love to share with others…not a lack of self-love that you become needy of other peoples attention. 

I think the perfect relationship (of course quite hard to attain) is the relationship where you are so completely in acceptance of yourself and the other person, and they of you, that if your life paths lead you in different directions you will not sacrifice your path or ask the other to sacrifice their path in order to keep your relationship together. You will be grateful that your paths have brought you this far together and for the memories you have made, and rejoice in the fact that you now get to share this wonderful person with other people who will come into their future. 

……I don’t  know, I’ve never experienced that feeling. But I’d imagine this is the sort of non-redundant relationship anyone with a sane mind would try to aspire to. I do know that when I have finished with an item of clothing or some sort of thing that has served its time in my life experience, i’d rather pass it on to a charity shop or let someone less fortunate experience it rather than throw it away or cling to it dearly for ’sentimental’ or memorial reasons. Life is too short to cling on…to anything. Nothing lasts forever, all forms are unstable, impermanent…even us. Change is the only constant, we need to get that into our heads. The ego has us believing that we need to hold on to as many things as we can, lest we become ‘less’ without them. But we are exactly the same person/being now as we were when we came out of our mothers womb into this world – bare-naked with no belongings. Oh what joyous days they were before we weren’t weighed down by our learned ‘Self’. The irrational egoic thoughts such as name, nationality, skin colour, ‘my posession’, ‘my opinion’, ‘my school’, ‘my friends’, ‘my family’, ‘my MONEY’, ‘my Gucci bag’. Those thoughts separate us from our true selves, our true power, our true connection to our family – the human race, animals, plants, insects, water, the earth…LIFE itself; our family. These thoughts  are leading us to the destruction of the eco system and therefore the extinction of our species. The earth will heal itself after we’re gone, it has all the time in the world. We don’t. 

I think its time we smashed our mirrors, stopped listening to our heads, turned off our TV sets and started looking at the beauty around us. Appreciate the beautiful man, don’t try to possess him. Appreciate the beautiful flower, don’t pick it, leave it be. Appreciate the beautiful views, don’t capture it and hang it on a wall, make a conscious effort to try return to the same place and experience it again. See a packet of crisps, remember yes they taste nice, and move on. Be happy not jealous for other people and their successes, as they are your family, their successes are your successes. Practice going out sober and build natural self confidence instead of drug dependant confidence. (Yes alcohol is a drug, just a legal drug. ) Fully experience and perceive the music and the lighting at the club or rave…be fully present, let go of the thoughts in your head that tell you that you need drugs to enjoy the experience. It is only the constant stream of thoughts themselves that tell you that you need the drugs, that actually hinder your enjoyment of the experience. It’s only the stream of thoughts that tell you that you are self-conscious, that make you feel uncomfortable. If you think you need a drink at the weekend to ‘unwind’ or relax, try climbing a mountain, painting a picture, going for a walk, doing something that requires your full attention. For it is the feeling of aliveness we are missing in our lives, mostly because we are stuck inside our offices, our sitting rooms, our cinemas, our TV’s….our heads. This feeling of aliveness is what alcohol and drugs imitate. There are much more healthier ways to attain this feeling. Healthier for body, mind AND soul. 

 

So I know all this. Do i listen to my own advice? I try to but I am not perfect either, the thought process called the ‘ego’ is a tricky character. And I still like to just give in to its whims, since it always puts up a good argument. But when I do give in, i will try to remember to accept it and enjoy it. This is what I have chosen now in this moment, I may as well honour it. I won’t listen to the egos complaints on how I’ve slipped up. I won’t let it create another reason for me to stay trapped in negative, useless thoughts and therefore create another reason for me to look outside of myself to find something to make me feel better. I am perfect in my imperfection. I am light and love and I love myself.

So why do i do these things i hate? Fun? Rather ego-perceived fun. But all i can do is be mindful. 

 

Remember; Tomorrow is a new day, and this moment is a new moment as always.

Stay present. Just for Now.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Still waiting...

I’m still waiting for an answer back from my doctor as to weather I can change medications now. I really need to as I have little balance anymore. I can only dance for a short amount of time and there are so many reasons I want to change to something new. I never thought I would have to wait 2 years for the doctors to be able to treat my chronic pain condition.

Today was a slight hell with a earthly outcome. I went to court with my partner to clear some things up. I was so anxious I couldn’t leave the house so I took more then my usual clonazepam to stay calm and collected so I could explain myself. When we initially arrived I thought I’d be cool and collected but as soon as we walked through the metal detectors I could feel an agitation in me that was not going to be held down. When I got to speak I told them that they were messing with my life and I didn’t need any more of it. I made it clear I would give the judge a bit of what for. I lost it. But still it worked out ok for all involved (most).

On another note the neighbors next door are still being a circus act and trying to terrorize the neighborhood. I have had enough of they’re antics/betrayal and destruction and have called the police (I know I’m not good talking to people in authority or anyone new in fact) but they have been excellent help and understand the dangers and risk the neighbors are to many of the dancers and myself. I am soon going to have to give another statement about some vandalism to my house. I am glad that is happening. I have that fight or flight feeling when I wake up in the morning and when I walk out the front door I can say fight is defiantly the winner there. I get worked up in about .01 of a second and If they walk near my house I have to use every ounce of strength not to kill them. I guess I need more self control. bah that’s so easy to say. I think I would do better with benzos. At least I have the police ready to act which is way better and smarter then giving them the much justified Glasgow kiss they all deserve. Either was everyone (dancers/friends other neighbors and us) will be more relaxed once it’s all dealt with.

The good news is my friends have been getting me out of the house for some fresh air and new sights.

7:30 My very good friend called up and asked If I wanted to go to the movies to see ‘Those inglorious Basterds’ at a 9:30 viewing  With some hesitation I agreed I knew I would be okay with my mate and not too freaked out.

7:35 I waited for him to pick me up as I waited my chest became tight and it was very painful a very strange sensation not teitzies something very wrong

8:00 One of the dancers put the blood pressure machine on me which was strange readings roughly 90 over 50 with a 90-98 pulse over 2 hours and not beeping in rhythm with a regular pulse. It was noted every time it stopped beeping I would cringe and fold my arm to my chest in incredible pain. I told everyone in the room no matter what don’t call ambulance I had to keep the phone behind me. They agreed on the terms if I stay conscious. Which worked out well. But on and off it’s still happening.

9:30 I look at the clock and look at my friends and partner who all have now stopped me from going out. And I wondered why my friend hadn’t shown up. He’s very reliable and I was starting to get worried.

9:35 My mobile rings and it’s My mates wife. She asks if I’m ok. I said all but a sore heart I told her T hadn’t shown up yet. She told me he was in hospital and had had a bike accident on the way to pick me up. She thought I was with him. I felt so bad and I can’t get it out of my mind.

A few days later -  I am wishing his family love and healing to recover soon. I have talked to him on the hospital phone and he is in good spirits even with so many breaks even his back. He is a strong person and will be up and running for his new little girl soon I know. XOXOXO

I have been having the crew over alot Floor20 (Klean, Chas, Damij, Merlin, Jester,Lil Z and the new guys) and they have been instrumental in keeping me fit and thinking. Not to mention my local community peer workers who probably don’t know how much a short conversation can mean to me, It always helps me think of the future. Something I think very little about these days. They also give me a step up when I’m under. I wonder when/if I will be able to do this myself. If I see it not working I will not waste the communities time. The last thing I want to be is a burden on society.

If things get too heavy I will do another re assessment of life and maybe stop the world and get off. Weather it means running away or something but the pain and pain problems are driving me crazy leaving out all the other issues – anxiety/depression/family issues/money problems and the rest.

Thanks to everyone who has helped me get to here. it’s been a rough road with many forks and dead ends. It takes a strong person to put up with me.

Lastly I must thank my partner for looking after me daily and helping me even when I have exhausted him. He some how gets it together to help calm me down.

So for everyone I love you.

Peace,

NW

-Reach for the stars-